Hello, my name is Marie and I’m a nerd

The other day on my personal blog, I talked about how I’ve always been a closest geek. If you met me in person, you’d likely see that I’m very shy and kind of awkward, but you probably wouldn’t know I’m nerdy unless you got me talking about a certain subject. I was always different growing up, but I tried never to let it show. I wasn’t cool or popular, and I didn’t want to give the ‘cool kids’ any reason to notice me and make fun of me. It was already hard being overweight and shy and a hopeless daydreamer.

I was lucky in that I had a very small, but very close group of friends. I wasn’t bullied too badly, and I was never concerned about being popular because the popular kids seemed so full of themselves, and they were all the same - same clothes, same hairstyles, same way of speaking. I liked being different. I just didn’t want them to know it. 

It wasn’t until I started book blogging that I finally let my inner nerd out of hiding. I began meeting people who shared the same interests, and not just books, but TV shows, movies, and music. I realized I wasn’t the only one who fell in love with fictional boys, wished I was a student at Hogwarts, dreamed of far off fictional lands, and pictured myself living the lives of my favourite fictional characters. I soon learned that I could be a squeeing fangirl and I wouldn’t be judged. In fact, for the first time in my life, I’ve made friends by being a squeeing fangirl. Online, I can be myself. I can let it all out and say proudly that I’m a nerd and I don’t care who knows it. 

It’s so amazing to finally have people who get it. Who get me. It’s exciting to have someone seek me out to talk about a book or a TV show because they know I’ll get just as excited as they do about something specific. Some of the best conversations I’ve had in the last few months have been about fictional people.

Blogging has been an unexpected gift for me. I’ve met so many diverse people, made some incredible friends (two people that I consider among my closest friends are people I met through blogging and who I haven’t actually met in real life - YET), and I get to talk about my favourite thing: books. I can be honest, I can be nerdy, I can be me. In a world where someone is always trying to tell you who you should and shouldn't be, being able to simply be yourself is a pretty fantastic thing. 

What about you? Do you consider yourself a nerd? Has blogging been a gift for you? In what way?

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